There it was moving quickly and agilely into different parts of my environment. Not being able to see fully, it camouflaged itself, and it took over my surroundings. I felt this crippling pain and recognized that it had its tail so profoundly sunken in me. With no sudden movement, it continued to stare at me, …
That one thing that is crippling you!
Do you know you have the power within you to be a change agent? It is easy to allow our thoughts to dictate what we do or where we go in our lives. It's like the meaning of insanity "Doing the same thing repeatedly and expecting different results." What is that one thing in your …
“Caution, don’t get caught in the conflict jungle”
There is so much going on in our world today. People are being hypervigilant are in a state of increased anxiety which can cause so many different emotions due to what is going on with the CoronaVirus. Creating conflict in areas that we did not plan and were unprepared for. People are having to social …
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It is time to unlock whose within you.
I remember growing up hearing my stepfather tell me, "I would never amount to anything." So I allowed fear to paralyze me and keep me hidden. It was when the failure part came to reality to me. I had learned to remain unseen and never discovering who I was within me for so many years …
Invisible vs Visible
Have you learned to live with your mask? Or maybe you wear many different masks? Because your hustling for worthiness and continue to numb yourselves so that you do not feel or show your vulnerability to others. By holding a mask at all costs, because what if they would discover the real you? Who is …
The Tyrant
Have you ever looked back at the medieval days and been so fascinated by the ruler over their kingdom. I love the way they align themselves up for battle. Anything that stepped foot on their territory, they were armed and ready. One of my favorite movies is Troy. This movie portrays the struggle between the …
Don’t stop being you!
I learned a valuable lesson in 2019. I was raised in an environment where I had no voice growing up. I quickly took inventory that when people are used to you being a certain way, and then you bring change, they no longer want to be buddy, buddy with you. Your new growth becomes a …
Dig up the root to find the truth!
Have you ever wondered why we do the things we sometimes do? Maybe you are unaware that you are doing it! Sometimes the things we struggle with is rooted in something that might seem unrelated to the behavior itself. I have been guilty of saying, "I'm going to stop doing this. As if it was …
What are you giving birth to?
Do you know that everyone has a purpose and calling in their lives? I was never one who believed that I had a purpose in life. My upbringing was a rough one and I did not like people, especially the religious ones. I was a person who was full of anger and could spit acid …
What road are you on?
I like having control over things, like what my upcoming weeks look like or knowing when and how I am going to handle a particular project. Or how to get my kids or husband to get them to do something I want them to do. I can predict the outcome and prepare accordingly for attitudes …
Authentic Self
Have you struggled to share your authentic self with others? Do you even know who your authentic self is? When I think of being authentic, I think of a person who wears no makeup. I am not saying that a person who wears makeup is not genuine. I am saying this is what comes to …
“WHY?”
Some many things happen in our lives that we don't understand the reasoning behind. I am always making a mental list jotting down in my mind when things have not gone as planned. Or rather, as I prayed accordingly to my selfish desires or needs. Some of those specifics things made me question my faith …
“You may bend, but you won’t break.”
So many times in our lives, things happen that are out of our control and make us feel like it is going to break us. Well, mine started at the beginning of this year and has been steadily moving daily. This year has been a year of change, pushing me to face fears, insecurities, and …
“Did I just say that?”
In the line of work that I do, it requires me to speak, address, and encourage. At times this can be a challenge for me, especially when you see someone making the same decisions over and over again, knowing that this has not been beneficial for that individual or the situation. I have been guilty …
I can’t take it anymore!
There I was in the middle of the night my chest felt tight, my left arm became numb. I did not know what was going on and never felt this way before. Little did I know I was having an anxiety attack. There was a lot of late nights and that particular night I had …
The Bully Within
Throughout my upbringing, I recall having two physical bullies at my school. Every day they would find a way to pick at me, steal my lunch, or push me around. It was terrifying not knowing what was going to happen on any given day. Until one day, I said, “No more, no more am I …
The other side
Have you ever had that feeling where you felt paralyzed and felt your heart racing Where you feel the hairs on the back of your neck, and your hands begin to shake? All of a sudden, there it was on the other side. I was sitting outside on my patio, taken back by the beautiful …
Slowly dying..
How many people do you think we pass by every day that is contemplating whether they should live or die? Here is something that will blow your mind; about 44,000 people try to commit suicide each year. As sad as it is people use different measures to get through life, whether it is drugs, alcohol, …
What are you afraid of and how does it affect you?
It's interesting to me how the word "change" means and affect people in different ways. One of my clients once told me, "That she wanted to apologize for the miscommunication she has had, but when she speaks to me that it is excellent, but it's intimidating. She stated when she sees me; I represent change, …
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Imperfect Being
Lately, I have been doing a lot of soul-searching. Wondering where did this fragmented part of me called "perfectionist" come from? In my early years, I was all over the place, and "order" did not exist in my life. Not until I had children and got my first corporate job is when I started to …
Calculate your prey…
I was fascinated as I was watching a documentary about Lions. Did you know that a lion is a large cat and are known as “king of the beasts?” They are very territorial and truly defend their area against intruding lions and other animals. One of the ways a lion proclaims an area is by …
To be continued…
Have you ever watched a tv show or movie that had you sitting at the edge of your seat anticipating what is going to happen next? Then all of sudden it ends with “To be continued”. You have all these emotions running through your veins and left wondering what just happened and why would they …
Who is coaching YOU?
What is a coach? It is a coach who comes alongside you to see you where you are at and help you get to where you want to be. I recall watching a commercial with a well-known basketball player and thinking, "He was not always a great basketball player". He had to work with someone …
Are you letting your junk build up?
Have you ever felt like there so many things going on all at the same time? Then that one little thing sets you off and you reflect on everything that’s not going right. What do we do with that? Do you deal with things as they come up or are we just continuing to stuff …
What is your verdict?
Today I was convicted in how many times in my own life I have judged, condemned or looked down upon others. Whether they have done something that was not according to my standards. I have been quick to express my opinion, even when the person has not asked for it. Or I have turned my …
Being deformed rather than transformed
I recall back in my high school years I loved wearing high heels. Back then they were called pumps. This girl had a struct like a runway model always feeling ready for a show. Several years ago I began having pain on my left foot, so I decided to see a podiatrist. I am embarrassed …
The importance of having friendships
Having friends in our lives is a necessity and can positively impact our lives. You can have acquaintances, which are more casual friends and than there are those that are worth chasing after to have a strong friendship. Some are closer to the heart. Those are the ones that have created influences in your life, …
A death must take place
One of the hardest things to have to face is the death of a loved one. I know it is a part of life, but it is tough to go through. In 2007, my mother died of cancer, and there were so many different emotions that were taking place. I recall being numb and in …
Motion Detected
I recently purchased equipment similar to the ring door. It was fascinating that every time any kind of activity came near it would alert me. I can watch through the camera as things were coming up towards the door and how it just alerted. It would indicate, "Motion Detected" whether it was an animal or …
Stop Copying Me
As a child did you ever mimic someone in what they were doing to be silly? Or decided to do something in return to because they hurt you? There are so many times that I think to myself, “It can be difficult to be a Christian”. Then being who am I ask, “Why, do you …
Magnified
I found myself struggling with a situation that as the minutes went by it became magnified. The thoughts began to creep into my heart. I felt my chest becoming tight and was feeling a lot of anxiety. I kept replaying the movie over and over asking myself, “Am I making the right decision? What if …
Did you sign a verbal agreement on that?
As I was working with a client on her belief system. I had her identify what some of her beliefs were. As we were working through some of the lies, we ran across one that indicated, “I’m not smart enough”. So, I probed a little and asked where did this stem from? She indicated to …
Puzzle Pieces
Have you ever felt that when your going through something in your life that you want to retreat! It’s never pretty, it’s ugly, it feels like it's oozing out of the pores and it smells. Why would someone want to face that! I was deceived into thinking people who are going through challenges in their …
INGREDIENTS
Have you ever marinated meat that required different types of ingredients? Maybe some of the ingredients you never heard of or have never tasted before. This is how things can be for us in our lives. There is a time for marinating that has to take place. In order to help us grow and mature …
STORY
What is YOUR story? Have you ever spoken about it? Have people heard of it? Do you have it written down? When was the last time you reviewed it? Share your story, it was not meant for you to only go through it and be kept silent! It was meant to bring encouragement and healing …
Confined and Uncomfortable
You never really know what you a scared of until you see something or are put in a situation where you to begin freak out in. There I was getting ready to get an MRI done on my neck and shoulder. Trying to figure out why I am still in a bit of discomfort after …
Retract or Come eat
Have you ever wondered why a turtle retracts its neck back into its shell? I believed that it was used as a source of protection from their predators. Many years ago, I was one who would retract as a source of protection. Just as the turtle if I sensed fear or danger, I would go …
Im starting with the “Man in the Mirror “
I like shopping for clothes especially when I see them on the mannequin and think, "That outfit is super cute". So I try on the outfit and say to myself, "Girl, you look good". I walked right out the store with the entire outfit. I got home and put the outfit away for a special …
Where did that come from?
One of the greatest opportunities I have is to coach people and get to know their story. I am all about getting into their world. I love getting to the root of things. Discovering the whys and hows. In trying to figure why someone is acting out or are constantly in that situation. When I …
Here we go!
There went the weekend and Monday was here. Attempting to start another diet and telling myself, "I need to log my food". There I was dealing with the feelings of disappointment and failing once again. I was on another roller coaster ride. Yet, I was not holding my arms up screaming with excitement, they were …
Where is that sharp pain coming from?
Have you ever walked into a room and there was a group of people laughing and having a conversation? Everyone stops, looks and then continues to laugh and carry on. Or do you ever recall being in grade school and the teacher picks a different helper week after week and your never picked. You begin …
Aftermath
When you hear of the word "Aftermath" what do you think of? It makes me think of a hurricane and I think of consequences of something. As I am look more into the effects of a hurricane it can be a scary thing. The strong winds move in a circular motion and when you look …
Who’s chomping on my crop?
When I visited Indiana I was amazed by how many crop fields there were. There were miles and miles of nothing but crop, farmhouses and tractors. I saw vegetables like corn and tomatoes it was pretty neat. Then I wondered about the work that goes behind in having to maintain those fields. As a farmer they …
Plug in your address…
On my trip to Indiana I had the privilege of getting a free upgrade with my rental car. This was a great opportunity to get all the bells and whistle in a car. So they offered my husband and I top pf the line pearly white Nissan Maxima. As the words were getting ready to …
Where is that smell coming from?
"Where is that smell coming from?" You find yourself looking around trying to figure out where the stench is! You continue to search and still can't find it. It could be miles away but your nose has picked up the smell that it almost makes you gag. I found where the smell is coming from, …
What happened to your wind turbine?
As I was traveling through the beautiful countryside of Indiana I was fascinated by these beautiful wind turbines. I was curious to see what they do. A wind turbine is specifically developed to generate electricity. It is a device that converts kinetic energy into electric energy. As I watched the windmill, it continued to move …
Go,”I will hold the Frontline”
Today I am reminded of a movie called "Tears of the Sun." In this movie the country was on the brink of a Civil War. A.K. Waters, (Bruce Willis) was assigned to lead a team of soldiers into the Nigerian jungle to rescue Dr Lena Kendricks. That was his mission in the movie. He shares …
Beware of the Signs…
Don't you just love it when something is being exposed in your life that you never saw the signs? There were never any inclination that it was coming your way so that you can prepare for it. Like an "Stay Back" or "Road Work Ahead , so that you can chose to go different route. …
Help my unbelief!
Today, I am pondering on a season in my life where I thought, "If one more thing goes wrong, I am literally going to snap". Where my upbringing began to ooze out of my pores. It tainted my outlook on life and question the beliefs I was raised by. How many times in life do …
Layers vs. Nakedness
There are times that I lay in my bed like the old days of Adam and Eve, just with the fig leaves! As I was laying in my bed I was sleeping with two different blankets. One was covering my upper body and the other one was covering the lower. I thought to myself, "How …
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